that's a quote my stepdad always used to say to me. never really thought much of it until today. i was walking home after taking the subway after 4 hours of dance classes. it was raining. very cold. slightly windy. and my umbrella was doing that thing where it was protecting my face, but for some reason my shoes were still soaked. i was wearing generic Uggs, so waterproof was just out of the question. and i couldn't tell if my socks were just sweaty from dance class or that the rain had just seeped in. i stopped by a 7-11 to pick up "dinner" even though i really wanted the ramen place across the street, but since i wasn't going to be paid again until the 8th of next month, i figured a pork bun and cup-o-noodles would suffice. but i was still unbelievably in a good mood. i had my iPod in my ear and i was walking like i had somewhere to be with a 'lil kick in my step.
and it was all cause i was in tokyo working towards my dreams and doing something everyday that i loved...
sounds cliche, i know. but that was the plain honest truth. back home i could barely get out of bed for a 9am class and drive 15 minutes to class or walk down the hill when i was dorming. and now i have to get up early everyday, have 10 hour days, no car, no ride, no parents to ask money from cause i feel like sushi instead of mcdonalds that day. i could barely make it to work on time when i was a manager at Guess even though i lived an exit away. i just wasn't motivated. yet, now i'm on the grind and STILL happy to do it.
you can't believe how tired i am everyday and how much all these strenuous activities have me soaking in the tub almost every night trying to alleviate the pain, but i'm STILL HAPPY. i know this is my job right now, but it's not a job when you're enjoying what you do. i thought these two months of training would take forever, but i've already reached the half way point and i can remember arriving and settling into my new surroundings like it was yesterday.
i guess the lesson for the day is don't settle. you CAN work and actually enjoy it. given, not everyone is lucky to have that opportunity, but my advice is TRY to get to that point in your life. work to get to that point in your life. cause from now on that's what i'm gonna do. i know this opportunity won't last forever, but now that i know what it feels like, i know what i want in life. hopefully you guys find that too.
til next time...
MEESH
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